Pink Chocolate become grey

Since morning...
my feet so happy to meet the night..wondering what happen to night..
they say, this is the night that we can expressed our heart for someone who we loved.
they say, we can share our time together with she alone.
they say, exchange our feeling with happiness
but...
its become Grey...

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Mengapa....'???

Sebuah tanya datang..berjalan berkeliling otak sambil mencubit sakit dipinggiran hati ini, entah kurang apa, tetapi selalu saja salah dalam menjalaninya. Kadang waktu juga berkompeten meredakan hati , berjuang dalam arogan diri untuk mengalah... bukan menyerah. Semua laku dianggap salah, tak pernah ada yang benar..berbeda denganmu bukan berarti bukan bagianmu.

Setiap hati dijalani dengan was-was, bersembunyi di balik log telpon, selalu berbatas diri hanya demi hormat. Kadang impovisasi salah diarti, hati layu baru datang kata maaf, sudah sinis imaginatif membuat langkah berjalan serasa timpang, sampai kapan selalu berjalan dalam rel ganda ini. Riak asa menyeruak hampa, hambar dan kecut dalam menghadapinya.

Andai hari menjadi slave diriku, aku ingin dia berputar ulang hingga perbaikan sikap dapat sempurna, berbagi lilin redup menjadi cerah, menjaga badai menjauh darinya. Andai waktu bawahanku, aku ingin dia taat berhenti berdetak saat aku perintah, biar moment itu selalu menggema. Andai suara peliharaanku, aku ingin dia merdu, menjadi merdu di tengah sahara luas, menjadi oasis hati saat sunyi. Andai ....

Jalan memang panjang, tapi kerikil dan serakan daun membuatnya makin bergetar asa..melangkah atau berhenti menjadi pilihat sakit. Berdiri di pojok niagara, serasa segar menyeramkan, dirimbuni tetes air jatuh dari atas, namun getir saat jatuh kebawah.

Mengapa .....???
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for healing my feeling, i heard a song from Chantal Kreviazuk. for me, this song are suitable if we want escape for while.

"Leaving On A Jet Plane"

I'm ... I'm ...

All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye

But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn
The taxi's waitin', he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

I'm ...

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I'll tell you now, they don't mean a thing

Every place I go, I think of you
Every song I sing, I sing for you
When I come back I'll wear your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time, oh, let me kiss you
And close your eyes and I'll be on my way

Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times that I won't have to say ...

Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

And I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

But I'm leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
Leaving on a jet plane
(Ah ah ah ah)
(Leaving) On a jet plane

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A note for Valentine
February 14th, 2009

pic adopted here, song and lyric